Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Heavy heart

While I've been elated with the arrival of my niece's baby boy. I'm also dealing with a heavy heart. A young girl I know is dealing with a due date that will never be. For that she has some deep regrets that'll haunt her for the rest of her life. An online friend is dealing with her second 2nd trimester loss in as many pregnancies. It's hard to stand by and see them suffer, knowing there isn't much I can do to help them in their pain.

Today I found out my sister's last day of work was Friday. She works/worked in the mortgage industry. To say there aren't too many options in that field for her right now is an understatement. At least her situation is fixable. It might not come quickly or be exactly what she wanted...but there are options available to her. It doesn't help that the economy is also putting a dent in her dh's gutter installation business. People are holding onto their money instead of investing it in their house.

UB just let me know that our van needs a lot of work and it's not driveable. *heavy sigh* In the grand scheme of things it's not a big deal, but's something I have to deal with. We were planning on driving it to my parents' house for Thanksgiving dinner. So now I have to do some major planning to get us all there. I haven't ironed it all out but I think it'll be ok. It makes me wish we were staying home though.

My family is getting bigger and I'm afraid it's getting to be too much for my mom. She's not the Martha Stewart type. She gets stressed out trying to cook for a bunch of people. Me, I love that type of thing. As the years go on she also becomes less tolerant of the kids' and their baggage (noise and movement). If I thought my mom would be comfortable at our house, I'd invite them here instead of going there. BUT she's not, so I don't.

I do have a lot to be thankful for though. For a fairly healthy and happy family, for a husband who has and will have a job in these uncertain times, for good friends both in real life and online and being given another day to make the most of.


noelle said...

I am there with you. Heavy heart but it's filled with gratitude for all that we have. I know it will be stressful, but enjoy the hassle of getting to your mom's. We live states away from all our family, so we will be home celebrating with just the 8 of us. Still a beautiful thing, but I long for family on days like today.

lunaticg said...

Just love to read about your big family. carry one with the great job you done as a mother and wife. two thumbs up from me for all women who love their big family.

See you around.

The Brothers said...

Wow. Haven't checked in on you in a while. Sean's sure getting big.
I totally feel you when you say that the monthly ritual of pain and mess is 10 times worse when you now that there's no chance that any buns will ever be in the oven again. Sigh. We did good work on the ones we grew, though, eh? ;)